Today I was Born

Today I was born.  I didn't ask to be born.  I wasn't ready to be born.  Yet, I was born.

I didn't get to choose my mother, my father or my siblings.  I didn't get to choose the color or texture of my hair.  I didn't get to pick the color of my eyes or the lightness of my skin.  I came with blue eyes, curly brown hair and fair skin.

Today I was born.  I don't remember being born.  I don't remember being held.  I don't know if I cried or was quiet.  I don't know if I was beautiful or shriveled.  I just know that I arrived.

I came into this world with nothing.  I have no clothes or shoes.  I have no money of my own.  I am penniless and naked and completely dependent on whoever will take care of me.  I have no expectations.  I have no hopes or dreams.  I  know only how to breathe, eat and sleep.

Today I was born.  I have no idea what my life will hold.  If I will be loved and cherished or used and mistreated.  I don't know if I will have good friends, a nice home, a husband or a family of my own.  I don't know if I will get good grades in school, love to sing or have a dry sense of humor.  I just know that I am here.

I am tiny and frail.  I am hungry and needy.  I want only to be held, fed and loved.  My heart beats for these simple things.

Today I was born.  May 6, 1969.  I look back and ponder my birth.  I have lived with a lot of sorrow and regret.  I have had joy and laughter too.  I wish I could re-live some moments and completely banish others.  I don't yet understand my life like I want to.  I just know that I was born and that I now live.

I have hopes and dreams.  I have strengths and weaknesses.  I have accomplishments and failures.  I am who I have become over these past 42 years.

Today I am alive.  I breathe, eat and sleep.  I see my curly brown hair & blue eyes.  I know that I love singing and am a deep thinker.  I love me and dislike me.  I am learning to accept me as I am.

I will trust God to take care of me.  I know that He has been for all these years.  He knows everything about me up to this point and until my final breath.  He knows more about me than I know about myself.  So I will trust Him.

Today I was born.  May 6, 1969.  Today I am alive.  May 6, 2011.  Today I will live and continue to become who I was always meant to be.